what i feel today

                             

i feel sooo confused with myself.. 

not sure what i want

no plans for myself

no plans for my family

no plans for someone else

i just have this feeling

it's unfair....

i just cant say it...

sighs....

just a few pix from my hard drive

a comeback

I guess I would have to revive this blog.

I must say this is a come back.

This is a place to tell the story of my life.

Love, hate and sacrifices.

I thank you for continuously checking my blog.

I really appreciate it.

It makes me feel I am interesting.

That my stories are worth reading.

That my life has a meaning.

I will post more soon.... :)

busy

been busy for the past few months... I will update this blog soon.....�

on a Sunday morning

random thoughts

mixed emotions.. that's what i feel today.
not sure what i want... not sure if i'm wanted either.
deaf, blind and numb.
let me go, make me feel i have my life... let me be happy.
your memories are killing me.
am i really over you?
if i am then why it hurts when i see things about you?
if i am then why i wear your perfume?
if i do then why do i dream about you?
if i do then why my heart is broken?
time heals the wounds.. that's what they say...
i'm still hoping... struggling... to wipe away the tears of yesterday...
when will i be happy? where can i find it?
or have i found it with someone else now?
so many questions left unanswered..
pressured... i really hate it...
i need help...
i need space...
i need time to think and recover...
why do love songs make me cry...
what am i cryin for? who is it for?
why do i feel sadness?
i want to explode...
i want to know the answers
i am sorry...
my life is so complicated..
but thanks for being there for me...
at least i have you...

farmtown addiction

This is what takes so much of my time during rest days... jejejeje

today

for some reasons... i feel so sad today...

no friends to tell my stories

no family to talk to

and the only person I would expect to be there for me...

doesn't trust me....

sigh......

wish

kung may isang bagay na pwede ko hilingin sa buhay ko...

kung may isang bagay na pwede kong ibalik...

isang bagay na pinakananais ko..

yan ay ang makilala ka...

bata pa lang ako, inaasam asam ko na makita ka

makasama...

makalaro...

magturo sakin ng mga aral ng buhay...

naalala ko pa nga..

ang tanging alaala ko sayo...

dalawang bagay..

parehong wirdo..

una, gabi nun... natutulog na ang lahat..

bumukas ang bintana..

pumasok ang napakalakas na hangin..

lumamig ang buong kwarto...

pumasok ka sa bintana..

nakakalipad ka.

nagising ako sa hangin..

nakita kita..

tinawag mo ako.

niyakap

at duon... ako'y iyong inilipad

inilibot sa mundo... napakasaya ko nun...

naramadaman ko ang iyong pagmamahal.

pangalawa.....

sa bahay... 

sa ilalim ng hagdan...

maraming tao

subalit tahimik

bumaba ako..

duo'y nakita ka..

tahimik...

ako'y naluha...

nakita ka...

sa loob ng isang kabaong...

salamat sayo... salamat sa pagmamahal mo...

san ka man ngayon... sana'y maramdaman mo..

di man kita nakilala... mahal na mahal kita...

happy father's day.. tatay...

see you soon.

cam whoring part II

before..

After...

camwhore lolz!

weekend na naman! as usual.. wlang magawa sa bahay..

I cleaned my apartment.. kasi I didnt realize mas malaking space ng unit ko ang nagagamit ng basura kaysa sakin hahahah!

i cleaned my bathroom... sa sobrang linis.. pwede ka na dun kumain lol!

after cleaning my pad... nag net muna sandali hanggang mapag initan ang cam.. kaya eto kinalabasan!

Tada!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahehehe... ayos ba?

what's on my mind....

Never say goodbye when you still want to try.

Never give up when you still feel that you can take it.

Never say you no longer love a person when you can't let go..

Sometimes we get lost along the way.

Look for the brightest star, it will lead you back.

Maybe after all that's happened, our paths will cross again and we won't be lost anymore because we've found each other.

Until then, I'll be looking out for you, guiding you through ...

Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to.

Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care.

Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.

They say, 'Time heals all wounds.'

If that is true, then I guess mine go deeper than pain.

There are no words to choose over losing you.

I guess I found out too late,

and now all I feel is heartbreak

.....that only hurts when I breathe.

old pics with my peepz

san ba kasi nakatapat ang cam? hahahaha

some old pics...

some old pics
full of memories.

bored

i just hate being idle... it's killing me!

i want to learn!

Gusto ko matuto magphotoshop!

Before

After

best quote i ever had

When you give someone your time,

you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.

Your time is your life.

That is why thegreatest gift you can give to someone is your time.

Relationships take time and effort,

and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E

because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others,

but how much we give of ourselves.

c'est la vie!

2:34 am

the clock is ticking
spending the night in the office
have nothing much to do
thinking of the old days
when i was younger
used to be so emotional
used to be so unkind
looking for so much attention
that i missed
looking for special someone
an experience to teach me
looking for fantasy
reality outside the imaginable
looking for possibility
for fun
looking for intimate love
my obsession
pathetic
amazed by someone else's stories
tried everything i thought is right
gave myself to someone i just knew
and regret
met someone else
mor than once
twice
or even nth times
nothing really worked
left out
broken hearted
rejected
sadness
depression
now back to reality
matured
busy
made myself attached to the true meaning of life
of relationship
of love
life has to move on
learned from my past
and made me a better person
a cotinuous process
i now started to appreciate.
...c'est la vie!

4 seasons

Thanks Jay for the edit :)

tara mag beach

Summer na
Sarap mag beach
Sarap mag outing
Sarap magpalamig
Sarap mag roadtrip
Sarap magpaikot ikot
Makarating sa maraming lugar
Kaso
Wala naman nag aaya
Walang pera
Puro responsibilidad
Puro luho
Balewala ang pinag ipunan
Walang pinatutunguhan
Minsan naglalango sa alak
sa tanghaling tapat
Sana sa dagat na lamang
duon masaya ang hangin
ang tunog ng alon
ang buhanging humahalik sa ating talampakan
ang mga batong maliit
mga isdang naaanod
mga pagkaing sariwa

Tara mag beach
Dun tayo magpalipas ng gabi
Dun natin pagusapan ang ating mga plano sa buhay
Pagkwentuhan ang mga nakaraan
Duon magtawanan
Tawang malakas
Walang pakialam


Tara mag beach
Maghihintay ako

:)

trip

lapit na holy week
lakas ng hangin sa labas
dinadala nya ang mga tuyong dahon sa kalsada
nalalaglag ang mga tuyong sanga ng mga puno
ang ganda ng mga bulaklak
matitingkad ang mga kulay
ang sarap panuorin
sarap pagmasdan
tila nakakalimutan mo ang mga problema
lahat parang ang gaan
di ko na namamalayan ang paglipas ng oras
mas ok ang nature trip
kaysa mag chat
puro bolahan
puro kasinungalingan
peke ang mga tawanan
plastik ang mga tao
na walang alam kundi kamunduhan
sarap pa rin mabuhay
lalo na kung ganito ang nakikita mo
lalo na kung may inspirasyon ka
ang taong nagpapangiti sayo
ang taong alam mong umiisip sayo
taong may pakialam
taong nagpapatibok ng puso mo...

A heart broken has opened his door to new one.

Saying goodbye is one of the hardest thing to do. 

I have to move on.

Picking up the pieces again.

I thank u for all the great memories we both shared.

I wish u the happiness u ever dreamt of.

Happiness that I failed to give... that you've found in him.

I have someone else now.

We've known each other for the longest time.

Someone I shared my lonely nights while I'm healing.

I thank god we met again and continue the love we thought would never happen

I have found from her the love and attention I've been looking for.

Someone who would fight for me.

Someone who would never leave me in the rain.

Someone who made me changed.

I'm a better person now...

Not the one you used to know..

Not the one who broke your heart...

Not the one you've left behind.

I thank you for everything.

I wish you luck and hopes to be happy with him.

Hope you'll get well soon.

I'll pray for you.

To my new one, thank you for being there for me...

You always make me smile.

I love you 

go go boy!

i edited the pic above...

below was edited by my katukayo... galing!

my twin

Have u ever wished u have a twin?

ulan

umuulan

pumapatak ang tubig galing sa mga ulap
tahimik ang paligid
malamig
masarap magtampisaw sa tubig
mabasa
malamigan
maramdaman ang hanging sariwa
pumikit
maramdaman ang halik ng langit
yakapin ng kalikasan
tumakbo kahit madulas ang daan
madapa pero muling bumangon
tumalon sabay ng patak ng tubig galing sa langit
parang awit sa pandinig
ang lagaslas ng tubig
lumipas ang oras
makalimot sa problema
makalimutan ka....

wow cakes

sinfully delicious!

regrets

i should have held your hands tighter..

i should have kissed you more...

i should have placed my arms around you during your sleep...

i should have bought you flowers...

i should have cooked food for you to eat...

i should have said thank you everytime you're with me...

i should have been more vocal...

i should have never took you for granted...

i should have never went out with friends so you won't get jealous...

i should have never lied..

i should have understood your job...

i should have made surprises...

i should have been there when you were sick...

i should have never pretended i don't miss you.. cuz i do...

i should have loved you... more than my self...



now that you're gone... i don't know where to start...

i wish i could turn back the time...

to promise you... forever...

i love you.

amazing power of technology

i met a friend.. i showed him this picture.. and asked him to put a drama on it...

BEFORE

AFTER

Impressed?

that's life

it's you who makes me smile

you're the source of my strength

my happiness

my inspiration

i just need some of your time

but you turned your back

and leave me alone

i left my comfort zone

just to be with you

i have hurt someone

someone who waited for me..

i turned away

resisted temptation

you just dont know how much i care

i just can't express it

...the way you want it

everytime we're together..

i watch you sleep

hold your hand

and pray to god and thank him

i have someone like you...

you just don''t know

i kept it...

i hold your hand until the morning sun shines..

i have plans for us...

a lot...

but those plans will be forgotten

i can never do it without you..

you're the reason I am strong..

now that you're gone... 

i have to walk alone..

back to the dark where i was...

thank you for the good things we had.

i'll keep that in my heart

until the day i die.

ang sapi

handa ka na ba?






ang sapi....
:)