random thoughts

mixed emotions.. that's what i feel today.
not sure what i want... not sure if i'm wanted either.
deaf, blind and numb.
let me go, make me feel i have my life... let me be happy.
your memories are killing me.
am i really over you?
if i am then why it hurts when i see things about you?
if i am then why i wear your perfume?
if i do then why do i dream about you?
if i do then why my heart is broken?
time heals the wounds.. that's what they say...
i'm still hoping... struggling... to wipe away the tears of yesterday...
when will i be happy? where can i find it?
or have i found it with someone else now?
so many questions left unanswered..
pressured... i really hate it...
i need help...
i need space...
i need time to think and recover...
why do love songs make me cry...
what am i cryin for? who is it for?
why do i feel sadness?
i want to explode...
i want to know the answers
i am sorry...
my life is so complicated..
but thanks for being there for me...
at least i have you...

farmtown addiction

This is what takes so much of my time during rest days... jejejeje

today

for some reasons... i feel so sad today...

no friends to tell my stories

no family to talk to

and the only person I would expect to be there for me...

doesn't trust me....

sigh......