Umay lol

Baby's new Lens

I played around with my new Baby's lens (75-300mm)

A road to nowhere..

Just when you thought the right time comes...

Just when they came into your life,

Just when the feelings seem so right,

Then you will realize,

It is not what you want...

When you get into a situation of no turning back,

Will you take the risk or just let it go?

As you walk the path of life,

As you meet people along,

As you travel this long journey,

Soon you will realize what can really make you happy.

Is it relationship? 

Is it friends?

Is it company?

Is it the attention?

Confusion, uncertainties,

They all lead you to nowhere...

Discover what you want, 

and start from there....

Andre

Life of a Man (Original Song) - Joseph Vincent (Live Performance)

Food Blog: Glassguyskitchen

And finally I have started my food blog. I am posting pics I took using camera phones. Soon, as soon as I get familiarized with all the advanced DSLR functions, I will be taking macro shots of the moth watering food found in the metro.I hope you will enjoy browsing my foodblog :-)

Here's the link: http://glassguyskitchen.blogspot.com/

Thank you!

I'm so happy when i received this gift. Clinique Happy is my most fave perfume. :-)

Thank you so much!!! :-)

Same old

A few friends, just got reconnected. They've asked me, what has changed since last time we guys have seen each other. All of them are now partnered. One of them even had a kid. Then they threw the question to me...

"Jay, ikaw? what has changed? Kumusta ka na? How's lovelife?"

Then I replied...

"ah.. eh... ako?... same old same old. nothin has really changed. i'm still single."

Someone asked:

"weh.. ikaw pa mabakante? eh parang ang dami mo kakilala at kausap..."

Then I said,

"well yeah, marami ako kausap, and have met some people, pero it doesnt mean, it would start a relationship"

A friend laughed:

"hahaha utut mo, ikaw pa!" Ang choosy mo kasi!"

I told them,

"guys, com'on, dont put me on the hot seat, let's just eat."



Then we just went out and ate lunch. While I'm still thinking about the answer to the question, "why am I still single? After all, I'm not as bad looking naman, and I have a decent job and good boy naman"....

Have I set the bar too high that no one could ever pass?



sighs....

 Then I just kept silent for the rest of the day...

Portrait (random photos of me and friends)

Feeling Sexy (enhanced by photoshop)

Dream come true

Finally bought a DSLR for my self. A late birthday gift for me :-)

Dear God

Dear God,

I have been sickly for quite some time, I guess because i have a lot of things going on with my life right now. I'm so tired... Really tired...

I am currently chillin with fever, drank the last med i bought. My back and leg hurt so much.

Lord, if i'm gonna die tonight, please let my mom survive her upcoming brain surgery, my siblings need her badly.

Please let her know i love her so much. Lord, if you will take me, please let me sit beside you and talk to you. Let me tell you my story.

Jay

I wanna sleep and dream about you..

I wanna see you again.
Your smile,
Your eyes,
Your scent,


How I wish I can see you more often, 
If I could only see you in dreams,
I'd sleep more to see you more..


I hope you feel the same way too.
I'm just afraid to reserve an seat but end up alone again.

I need motivation

6 months and counting since I stopped going to the gym.. now, love handles are everywhere...

I need motivation!

Closer You And I

Lyrics | Gino Padilla lyrics - Closer You And I lyrics

Stephen Speaks

I wonder where are these guys now....

Mga tanong na walang kasagutan...

Palagi ko naiisip,
Bakit kaya ganun?
Medyo matagal tagal na din kasi...


Tanong na palagi sumasagi sa isipan ko.
Nasa akin na siguro ang problema.
Pero ano?
Palagi ko iniisip,
I have changed nga daw sabi ng ex ko.
Ang dating passive at di sweet na ako,
Nagbago...
Despite na binago ko, bakit parang ganun pa din?


Mahirap magmahal pero masakit ang di mapansin.
Masarap mag effort para sa kanya,
Pero masakit ang di maappreciate.


Parang sasabog ang ulo ko.
Ayoko na sana mag isip.
Gusto ko lang naman ng makakasama.
Pero palaging may mali.

Gusto kita, ayaw mo ako,
Ano gagawin ko?
Ang dali naman mag move on eh,
Kaso bakit masyadong madalas maulit?
Since 2009, di na ko mkabuo ng isang relasyon.


Anong mali?
Anong dapat baguhin?
Anong dapat gawin para maayos.


Sana dumating ka na...
pero sana, wag mo ko sasaktan....


Sa mga oras na ito,
Ang mga tanong na ito;y pilit nagsusumigaw sa isipan ko.
Kung pwede lang sana i off ang utak kahit sandali.
Kung pwede lang ihinto ang oras.
Kung pwede lang ang puso, mamanhid.


Sana.... makita ko na ang sagot...

Dream

I dreamt of you last night... 

that...one of these days I'll find you...

Someone who can spend time with me..

we'll travel the world,

Be with each other,

Tell stories, 

Laugh and cry together...

I know one day,

I'll see you..

And when that happens,

I'll hold your hand...

and I'll never let you go...

magsimula at muling magmahal...

Dumadating sa buhay ng tao
Na siya'y napapagod
Nagsasawa
Naghahanap ng kaligayahan
..ng taong magmamahal

Dumadating sa buhay ng tao

Na siya'y nadadapa at nasusugatan

Natatakot...

Naghahanap ng malalapitan

..ng taong magmamahal

Dumadating sa buhay ng tao
Na siya'y nagmamahal,
at umaasa na mamahalin.
..ng taong pinaglalaanan nya ng oras

Dumadating sa buhay ng tao

Na siya'y umaasa,

Na siya'y maging masaya,

At mabigyan ng pagkakataon na makasama

ng taong kanyang minamahal...

Dumadating sa buhay ng tao
Ang matinding lungkot
Ang dagok ng buhay,
Subalit patuloy na nagmamahal

Dumadating sa buhay ng tao

Na siya'y susuko,

dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman...

Dahil sa siya ay nagmahal sa maling tao.

Dumadating sa buhay ng tao
Na siya'y magpapaalam,
Lalayo,
Dala ang pag-asang muling lumigaya,
At muling magmahal

Dumadating sa buhay ng tao

Ang taong minamahal

at ang taong sa kanya'y magmamahal

Duo'y maibabalik ang ngiti,

Muling magsisimula,

...at patuloy na magmamahal

2nd Priority

You have lifted me so high into the cloud 9..
Made me feel so special...
I took the risk..
I took the chance..
Though I know right from the start..

...that I am nobody but a second choice...

...your second priority

I thought you were sincere...

...uttered words that I love to hear

...so here I am

...depressed

...frustrated

broken hearted..

I just hope someday you will realize...

The value add I gave to you...

my worth...

and the efforts and attention I gave to you...

...I guess, it's time to move on...

...Let go of you

...Say goodbye

...you are nothing but a heart break

...a false hope

...I'll continue this journey
...I will walk alone

Speak No Evil

I'll keep my silence...

'til you realize my worth. 

I don't want to speak words

...that I will eventually regret. 

I'll remain quiet and keep it inside...

:-(

hays.....

Sakit naman nun.

Pinaasa mo lang ako.

Ako naman si tanga naniwala sayo..

Inayos ko ang buhay ko.

Inilayo ang mga taong gumugulo sa isipan ko.

Gusto ko kasi ikaw lang...

Walang kasabay...

Walang magpapalito sa nararamdaman ko sayo.

Pilit kong inintindi ang mga gusto mo.

Isinantabi ang mga bagay na gusto ko.

Lahat ng yun para sayo.

Lahat ng yun para lang mapangiti kita.

Pilit kong pinigilan ang sarili ko sa mga bagay na alam ko ayaw mo.

Para masanay ako.

Pero kahit ganon, di pa rin sapat.

Kailangan meron ka pa din iba.

Kailangan ba talaga dalawa?

Bakit di ka makuntento?

Ang sakit na kasi...

Ang sakit sakit...

Di ko naman dapat nararamdaman to.

Maraming taong nagmamahal sakin.

Maraming nagpaparamdam...

Maraming gusto magsakripisyo.

Pero di ko alam, natanga ako sayo.

Sana lang di mo pagsisihan to.

At sana dumating din ako sa punto na...

di na pagmamahal nararamdaman ko sayo..

para mas madali kita makalimutan.

Manatiling masaya... Tumayo... at patuloy na magmahal..

I will sleep to dream about you...

Friday morning,
...woke up with a smile,
I saw your text last nite,
It feels so good...


The weather today is so fine,
gloomy, cloudy, cold...
...perfect to stay in bed late...
i want to sleep again,


...back to bed,


...and dream about you again...

Dilemma

I have never been as excited like this since the last year.
A smile from ear to ear.
Cloud 9.
What's with you that makes me special?
Your smile?
Your sweetness?
Your charm?
It really makes me think...
I know I like you since day 1.
My previous posts can prove that I've been wanting to have you ever since.
I received your text last night..."I love you so much Jay"
It feels good. It really does.
But why do I have these doubts about it?
I am not sure. 
Maybe I'm just afraid to fall totally and get hurt again.
If you happen to read this blog,
I just want to let you know,
That you're always on my mind.
Never a day that I miss thinking about you.
I hope and pray that whatever this leads to... we both won't get hurt.

I miss you and...

It's been months since I met you

...and a month when I learned I'm starting to like you...

...weeks when I let go of you to find your self

I told you to do so...

It breaks my heart to know that you let go off me 

and choose to be with the other guy...

I miss you...

I don't think you miss me too...

If there's one more thing that I'd like to happen...

...that is to forget you.

...forget  so I can move on

...so I can start over again.

Cool or hot? haircut i dun like.

Arrgh... i dont like this!

Fix me

I'm still waiting..

A broken heart that needs some fixin...

I hope it'll be soon...

I miss you... that it hurts...

why am i feeling this way...

since i said goodbye, palagi kita naiisip

to the point that i regret that i decided to stop seeing you..

to stop communicating with you...

i am not sure if i have made the right decision...

to give you a chance...

but i've already said goodbye...

shall i take it back..

but it really hurts..

I love you goodbye

You're always on my mind.

Keep starin' at your pictures on my celphone.

I long for your kiss.. your warm embrace at night.

But you are too selfish, 

I can't continue doing this to myself.

...reserving myself to someone who care less,

I care for you, so much that i keep enduring the pain.

Though there are times, in front of me, you are flirting with someone else..

I learned to appreciate your weakness, I become your strength...

Leaving someone when you love someone

Is the hardest thing to do

When you love someone as much as i love you

Oh i don’t wanna leave you

Baby it tears me up inside

But i’ll never be the one you’re needing

I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out

I love you, goodbye

Then I decided to end this pain,

I'm saying goodbye to you now,

You you mentioned in your text that you really don't care,

I know one day, if not today,

You will miss the things I've done for you,

There's only 1 Jay in the world,

And you hurt him...

I am giving up this reserved seat i have been keeping for you.

i wish for your happiness..

Goodbye...

I just thought of you, keep safe

it's been a while since then...
rainy season, when we met and separated...
i just realized i miss you..
we've had great moments together...
we've had sweet memories to treasure...
sad to say, all gone to waste when you left.


i am writing this blog today because i just thought of you..
when you picked me up on a windy and cold night due to bad weather...
it was a surprise meet up actually,
had my overflowing "kilig" moment nga they said.


people are asking me what happened to us,
we're almost a perfect couple...


hey, wherever you are, I hope you're doing fine.
take care of yourself.
I had moved on already.
and i'm not bitter about anything at all anymore.
i know that one of these days i'll find another one...
see you around. tc.

Happy Father's Day to You....

Dear Dad,

I have been longing to see you since I was child.

Never had a chance to know you.

I have been wanting to talk to you.

To see you

To embrace you

and tell you stories about my life...

I know you're in heaven now.

I just want you to know that I love you...

and thank you...

without you, i won't exist in this world...

June 14, 2011 - testing my new baby ip4 hehehe

3 months of no gym.... sighs...