Saturday, June 25, 2011

I miss you... that it hurts...

why am i feeling this way...
since i said goodbye, palagi kita naiisip
to the point that i regret that i decided to stop seeing you..
to stop communicating with you...
i am not sure if i have made the right decision...
to give you a chance...
but i've already said goodbye...
shall i take it back..
but it really hurts..

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I love you goodbye

You're always on my mind.
Keep starin' at your pictures on my celphone.
I long for your kiss.. your warm embrace at night.
But you are too selfish, 
I can't continue doing this to myself.
...reserving myself to someone who care less,
I care for you, so much that i keep enduring the pain.
Though there are times, in front of me, you are flirting with someone else..
I learned to appreciate your weakness, I become your strength...

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as i love you

Oh i don’t wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But i’ll never be the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye

Then I decided to end this pain,
I'm saying goodbye to you now,
You you mentioned in your text that you really don't care,
I know one day, if not today,
You will miss the things I've done for you,
There's only 1 Jay in the world,
And you hurt him...

I am giving up this reserved seat i have been keeping for you.
i wish for your happiness..


Monday, June 20, 2011

I just thought of you, keep safe

it's been a while since then...
rainy season, when we met and separated...
i just realized i miss you..
we've had great moments together...
we've had sweet memories to treasure...
sad to say, all gone to waste when you left.

i am writing this blog today because i just thought of you..
when you picked me up on a windy and cold night due to bad weather...
it was a surprise meet up actually,
had my overflowing "kilig" moment nga they said.

people are asking me what happened to us,
we're almost a perfect couple...

hey, wherever you are, I hope you're doing fine.
take care of yourself.
I had moved on already.
and i'm not bitter about anything at all anymore.
i know that one of these days i'll find another one...
see you around. tc.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Happy Father's Day to You....

Dear Dad,

I have been longing to see you since I was child.
Never had a chance to know you.
I have been wanting to talk to you.
To see you
To embrace you
and tell you stories about my life...
I know you're in heaven now.
I just want you to know that I love you...
and thank you...
without you, i won't exist in this world...

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Blackberry Bold 9780 for Sale (slightly used - less than 3 weeks)

I bought a Blackberry Bold 9780 less than a month ago.. 
I really love this gadget.
Very sleek and easy to use.
Apparently, due to hardship, I need to sell this soon as I expected.

Anyone interested?
18k (negotiable) msg me over twitter: Jaysome102 

BlackBerry Bold 9780 specifications:

5-megapixel auto focus camera
Bluetooth® v2.1 with A2DP
HSDPA/3G+/GPRS/Edge support
Wi-Fi 802.11 b/g
QWERTY keypad
external memory up to 16GB microSD
A-GPS support
UMA technology
MP3 ringtones
MP3 player
3.5 mm audio jack
internal memory 256MB
BlackBerry® email
MP3 and AAC player
quad band
music player

Monday, June 6, 2011


I met this guy 1 time through a social networking site. We met that night just to cuddle and watch some dvd's at home. He's really nice, I liked him so much that i almost fell in love with all the things he do and what he is. He made me special, he cuddled me til i fall asleep. It was not sexual. Sweet. Just like a partner. I missed that feeling. And I can't help it but to long for that warm embrace again.

Then morning came, he has to leave. He went home and called me up in the afternoon. He said he likes me but.....


I had this bad feeling that this "but" will break the "cloud 9" feeling I had. I asked him what is this "but". He said he is dating his ex. Weird huh, dating an ex. Oh well, gave the benefit of the doubt, I told him not to worry for I will do something stupid to break someone else's heart like his ex's.

Sad, yes..disappointed... i was...

after 2 weeks, he called. unknown number.. BTW, i lost his number because my phone got busted.

He called up, he said, he wants to see me again.. blindly, i said yes. I felt excited. very very excited. Then he came, in his gray long sleeves and slacks.. sharp looking and cute. cant take my eyes off of him. He smiled at me and said, let's drink a few bottles of beer.. we went to my apartment to drink. felt tipsy. We slept together,
cuddled again, sweet...he said over and over again... he likes me....

I like him too.... but i cant continue doing this.

He confessed his past, told me he dated and dating a few. That sucks. I felt bad about it. I told him what I feel. and I told him, i will be there for you as long as I'm single... I'll stop to be your cuddle buddy once i get committed to someone. But i wasn't able to stop myself from telling him.. that I had myself reserved for him because I like him..bur he keeps on breaking my heart and It's not easy...

I dunno where I'm heading.. still thinking of letting go... he just keeps on showing me what i want and makes me feel special every now and then...

Shall I keep this seat reserved for you? Or shall I let someone sit beside me and make me happy.