my so called lonely life

i've been sitting in this dark corner of my room...
the a.c is set to high cool..
it's extremely cold
people kept on asking me
why are you so lonely
here i am..
finding the answers why
??????????
bakit nga ba?

seriously, it's really hard to explain
but i guess i know some of them
i'm not afraid to be alone
that doesn't scare me at all
what scares me is the feeling that...
of all the millions,
billions
or gazillion number of people in the world,
nobody has ever paid attention
and took the risk to become a part of my life.


this is reality,
it bites....

it bit me that it hurts so much.

Laguna

pink

in pink


this is me after work

i just find it very manly for a guy to wear pink.

weirdo.

sunday morning

uhm.. am i good enough? lolz

thank you for the memories

thank you for the time you've made me happy.
you made me smile
laugh
feel im not alone...

but that's life..
you come, and go..

i miss you

Chichi and Monmon...

my lovely hamsters.. has passed away.

just like my love.

so sad...

my life is so sad...

wish someone will be there to make me smile again.

some old pictures

glassguy in cavite

One afternoon in my room...

After 2 months, i finally went home to Cavite.

Some people find me weird cuz it takes months just to visit my relatives there where in fact, it's not that far from Manila where I work.

I missed that place.

It's very quiet. You don't need an AC because the wind is so cold......

brrrrr... that reminds me of my childhood.

I'll tell your more stories about it on my future posts...

have a good Sunday evening...

ang buhay nga naman

nagonline ako minsan

sobrang inip sa aarw na yun

di ko lam gagawin ko..

pumasok sa isang chatroom

doon may nakilala

nakausap

nakabiruan

nakatawanan

ang tagal ng inabot ng usapan na yun

5 oras ata.

nakakpagtaka, di ako nagsasawa...

lalo pa ko nanabik na palagi ko sya makausap

nakakatuwa

ang gaan ng loob ko

pakiramdam ko

ikaw na yung hinahanap ko

yung taong palaging masaya.

taong makulit at pasaway na handang magpasaya sa bawat oras ko


dumaan ang ilang linggo

nagbago ka

may nagawa din akong mali.

maraming natuklasan


pero bakit ganun...

nagbago ka

halos di na kita kilala

nakakalungkot

ang dati'y tawanan, minsan sa tampuhan nauuwi..

hindi ganito ang dapat na mangyari

sa palagay ko. kasalanan ko.


lahat ng taong naging parte ng buhay ko ay nawawala.

isa ka na dun.

sana... mahanap ko na ang katahimikan

bagay na nais kong makita.


sa lugar na yun... tahimik

walang alitan

walang sama ng loob.


dadalhin ko dun ang mga alaala.. ang masasayang sandali.

doon... magiging masaya na ko.


pero doon.., ikaw pa rin ang nasa isip ko.

Labor Day

today is labor day!

double pay sa mga callcenter peepz.

kinda bored so i took a picture of my self