One way

They say it takes two to tango.
But what if it's just you dancing and the other isn't?
What if you love but not loved back?
What if it's just one way?
What supposedly mutual, never happens.
Would you still continue?
Will you keep on holding on, while the other is letting go?

waiting...

January 24, 2011 camwhoring

Kutsilyo?

hahaha laughtrip!

Living a healthy life

Today, I'll start living a healthy lifestyle...

I want to get rid this big tummy :-)

Are you the right one?

 Here I am again, trying to bring my thoughts together. Reminiscing the past and looking forward to better one. I still miss you but I shouldn't. I have to move on and look for another one who can love me more than you do. I always check facebook and twitter, taking chances. Who knows I might meet someone there. I have dated a couple of people but no one can make me feel what you made me feel and all of my other ex's made me feel when I met them. I am looking for that feeling again. It feels really good. It can make or break but I still wanna take chances. I keep on asking myself whenever I meet people, are you this person who can make my world turn upside down? Can you make me feel I'm a human? Are you the right one?

while I am sleeping

I can still remember the taste of your lips as it touches mine..

your soft hands caressing my chest..

your warm embrace keeps me warm all night..

i can still recall all these things..

while i am sleeping...

I'm a celebrity lol

12.15.2011

Look how boredom makes me go crazy lol

cute creature

cant take my eyes off of him...

No rice diet

today i will start the "no rice" diet program... 

healthy living for me!

Half full or Half Empty?

This is one question that I have been asking my self...

Until now, I can't answer.

Why do i see my self half empty?

Why can't I feel I am half full?

I am searching for contentment, companion, attention...

and looking for affection.

I wish my heart is like a glass of water..

When I see it's half empty, 

I can just refill with water.

But the heart is not a glass..

And just like some other stories that never end,

This question keeps lingering in my ears...

Am I really half full or half empty?

In the Shadow of your Wings - Hillsong

"Lord, thank you for all the blessings.. without you, I am nothing..."

My spirit rests in You
You're all I know
Embrace and touch me
Like a child
I'm safe in You

You're my shelter through it all
You're my refuge and my strength
Lord I hide in the shadow of Your wings

My Lord, You're faithful
You supply all good things
You know completely
All my thoughts
My deepest needs

Haircut

I've got a haircut.. and I dun think i like it!

Facebook

I have been thinking for weeks lately. Whether or not to keep my second facebook account. Yes, you are right, I have 2 facebook accounts. I had to separate my straight life from my "not so straight" way of living. It used be just one, when one of my gay friends commented to one of my posts that really struck me. Yes I am not out to my family. I'm just not so comfortable talking to them about it but I know they have a hint. 


Going back to this facebook account, I have roughly 2000 friends there, i would say 80% of them, I don't even know. I just accept whoever requests just so i can have as many friends as I can. Lately, I've been thinking about keeping it. Why? Because I don't see any benefits from it except a channel to flirt around. This networking site has been there and it's just making me immature as opposed to becoming a better person. I wouldn't deny the fact the facebook makes me busy, keeps me away from boredom, let me talk to new people and connect to my friends. Yes, I call them friends, are they really worth calling friends? Where were they when I needed one? And where was I when they needed me? I just really can't see the good thing about keeping it right now. 


Currently, it's temporarily deactivated. I'm still thinking......

Confused

I met someone through a social networking site.

Cool

Nice

Tactful

Funny

Intelligent

No idle moments

We spent time last new year's eve.

Watched tv together at home.

We were never sexual.

We respect each other.

I started to like this person.

Problem is, I'm not sure if the feeling is mutual.

I don't want to assume.

I keep myself available just for him.

Makes me smile every time he texts,

But this bothers me a lot,

I am starting to feel excited...

I am starting to feel interested..

Jealous at people around him, "my competitors".

But again, I don't want to assume.

I am confused.

I don't wanna let go of this feelings.

I don't want to make fall...

I am scared.

I've been through a lot of pains on my recent relationship.

And I'm afraid same thing will happen.

I wish my heart is like a switch,

where I can just switch it on and off whenever I want.

but the heart is not made that way...

God, you know I am nice,

I just hope that whatever happens..

will make me a better person.

I just hope, the next time I fall...

I won't get hurt.

I am so confused....