Confused

I met someone through a social networking site.

Cool

Nice

Tactful

Funny

Intelligent

No idle moments

We spent time last new year's eve.

Watched tv together at home.

We were never sexual.

We respect each other.

I started to like this person.

Problem is, I'm not sure if the feeling is mutual.

I don't want to assume.

I keep myself available just for him.

Makes me smile every time he texts,

But this bothers me a lot,

I am starting to feel excited...

I am starting to feel interested..

Jealous at people around him, "my competitors".

But again, I don't want to assume.

I am confused.

I don't wanna let go of this feelings.

I don't want to make fall...

I am scared.

I've been through a lot of pains on my recent relationship.

And I'm afraid same thing will happen.

I wish my heart is like a switch,

where I can just switch it on and off whenever I want.

but the heart is not made that way...

God, you know I am nice,

I just hope that whatever happens..

will make me a better person.

I just hope, the next time I fall...

I won't get hurt.

I am so confused....